How Ocean Got His Groove Back
(Rekindling Your Magic)
by Ocean Wild
Recently, I have gone through a “dry spell” (and spell is used with extreme sarcasm in this instance) of life and of magic. It all just kind of disappeared I thought. Nothing was wrong, but for some reason my entire essence was just completely knocked off kilter by something.
And I was lost.
I went to work. I came home. I stared at my books and my tarot cards. I closed my online store for tarot readings. I abandoned the websites and things that made me happy, because I felt that they had abandoned me. Everywhere I looked I saw nothing. All I could see was every path ending the way all paths end, with my passing into the Great Unknown of the afterlife.
I had no real direction to go into. I just floated on these past couple of months without a real sense of purpose or being. I was the living dead. And it was not fun. I lost the pleasure from the things I love. Tarot, books, video games, all things that I once held dear to me just… felt like nothing.
I thought there was no way to shake it, and I started to wonder what I had done to deserve these feelings. Had I thrown off some great cosmic balance? Had I angered some primal force? Was I just broken? I didn’t have an answer and I had no idea where to find one.
This lasted for several months. And when I had thought that there was absolutely no way I would ever break free of these feelings (I was ready to complete give up and just accept the everyday life I was destined to have); I found my light at the end of the tunnel.
Someone looked me dead in the face and told me it was all about perspective. And those words resonated in me. My perspective had shifted and it wasn’t making me miserable. I had taken something I loved and tarnished it with expectations. I had taken something that brought me joy and turned it into a “job” I was desperately trying to make work.
Of course, I am not talking about my actual job. I am talking about my Tarot and workings. I had taken something that I loved doing, at no cost to anyone, and started telling everyone that if they continued to use me for readings, I needed compensation. I had put a price tag on something that I honestly loved doing for nothing. And this one simple action, had sent me spiraling down into a pit of despair that I couldn’t shake.
My perspective on my work had shifted into something that I had felt taken advantage of by my “friends” and those that wanted readings. However, when I had someone sit me down and tell me it was all about my perspective, I had to think. Did I feel taken advantage of? Was I hurt every time I did a tarot reading for someone and didn’t get anything in return? And the answer, strangely enough, was simple.
Not once during any of my time giving out readings to others did I feel hurt because they didn’t offer me anything in return. Not once had I felt used. In fact, I felt happy. I had a sense of purpose. Every reading I did, I could see the other person taking everything that was being said seriously. They honestly listened, and took the advice given to them.
And that made me feel like I was succeeding. I was doing something good and it made me feel great.
It wasn’t until I started thinking I could make money off the services that I started to feel bitter and used. Because, when I started asking for money, no one wanted reading anymore. I started to feel unwanted.
The thing was though, they still wanted the readings, I just happen to have friends that where in a financially stable place to pay. And THEY didn’t want to take advantage of me. My perspective was selfish. Their perspective was that of genuine concern, but for those months, I just wallowed in selfishness that I couldn’t make any money off something I was good at.
So, I write this to share my experience so that it may help others who may be doing the same thing.
Now, of course, don’t think that once those magical words where said, that I suddenly had an epiphany, and all my negative emotions just washed away in the light of realization.
Nope. Didn’t happen.
I worked and am still working on shaking off those feelings, but I am slowly stripping them off.
And that is another reason I am writing this, because I know I am not the only one that has ever felt this way. Become lost in the shadows of doubt and ego. And that is ok. There is no need to be embarrassed. It is only natural.
So, below I am going to share some helpful ways to help refocus and center on yourself. How to set your internal energy back on track.
A lot of these are just personal things that I found helped, so feel free to tweak them, take them with a grain of salt, or come up with your own ideas. What makes me happy, may not make you happy.
Let us begin.
A tried and true method. One that everyone knows about, and has been spoken of on different levels in previous articles I have written.
A lot of people think that meditation requires a quiet space and sitting down with your eyes closed, but the fact is that is just one way. Meditation comes in many different forms and it is all about adopting a way that works best for you.
Of course, we have the classic method of getting into a comfortable position, closing your eyes, clearing your mind, and letting all your negative thoughts and feelings drip off you like water off a frog’s back. And that method is great. I love to find a quiet space where I can, be it inside or outside, and just soak up the silence and the energies around me (granted they are positive).
But to be honest, how easy is it to find a nice and quiet spot now-a-days? And if you are lucky enough to be secluded in the woods in a nice little cabin, miles from civilization… congratulations! And know that I am jealous.
So, with the hustle and bustle of everyday life, how does one find time for meditation on the go?
Well, the methods I prefer are a nice long walk or simply putting in earbuds and getting lost in the music. That simple.
Either way you do, simply take in what’s happening. Look at the scenery (but please be mindful of dangers around you), look for something new you have never seen before, smell the flowers as you pass them, feel the wind wrap around you as you go. Whatever it takes, just be in the moment and let all that negativity you may have been building and holding on to fall off.
And with music, lose yourself. As cliché as that sounds, really. Let the song (whatever makes you happy) thump through you. Let it flow through your body like blood, and as the music encompasses you, let it push out all the negative. When something as music makes you feel that good, how can there be room for negativity in your body?
Simple methods that have helped me a lot these past few days. And as stated, these work for me, so if they don’t work for you, simply change it up.
A Shower or Bath (or Both!)
They call it cleansing when you rid yourself of negativity, so why not take it and make it literal? Wash away that negativity!
A shower and/or a bath is not only relaxing to the body, but also to the soul. I get yelled at a lot by my husband that my showers are way too long, but I don’t care. They make me happy and let me wash off the day so I can start again.
Of course, simply washing your body isn’t going to just wipe away your negativity, you must put a little work into it. Visualization and focus are required for this one, but it’s not difficult.
All you need to do is, while washing your body, imagine the suds from the soap are literally sucking all the negativity out of your body. Let those bubbles fill with whatever is bothering you, and then purge with water. Let them wash off you, and down the drain back to the depths of wherever they came from.
Abracadabra! Your body is squeaky clean and some of that negative energy (or all of it) is washed away. Plus, depending on the soap you use, you probably smell awesome.
Speaking of which, the soap you use can be very beneficial as well! Colored soap corresponds with color magic and the fragrances used in the soap also can be used to give your cleanse an extra kick.
I recently discovered a local soap company called Old Whaling Company (link at the bottom), that makes amazing soaps in all colors and fragrances. And they are relatively inexpensive. My favorite being their bergamot and grapefruit soap with active charcoal (so it’s black). Not only do bergamot and grapefruit both promote joy when used in a magical sense, but the active charcoal makes the soap black. One use for black in any magical works is that of banishing negativity. So, this soap has an extra punch I just love.
But, find what works best for you. Be it soaking in a bath tub full of essential oils, scrubbing your body clean with a sponge and a good bar of soap, or giving yourself a quick wash in the shower and then a nice soak in the tub (if you haven’t done this, do it. You get squeaky clean and then can just enjoy the nice bath water).
Just relax. That is the purpose of it all.
These steps are just a few that have helped me get over my “funk” and help me find my groove. So, take them as they are, use them, ignore them, but just know that you aren’t alone.
And please remember, while these help, these are not some miracle actions that will just jump start your life again. You still must be willing to work to make improvements as well.
Remember, it is about perspective, and unfortunately the mind is not something that is easily switched one way or the other.
And sometimes, you simply need someone to talk to or further help. So, seek a doctor or someone that you trust and just talk. No matter how bleak things look, you really aren’t alone and things will get better. You may just need a little extra help, and that is ok!
But, I hope this helps some of you out there who have forgotten the steps to your own dance, remember where you left off and help you pick back up.
Phone numbers (U.S.)
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
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